Hisaab-e-Karam

Unn yaadon ka waqt bhi jawaab nahi de sakta
Jo tum par shuru aur khatm naa hui ho

Uss aks ki yaad mein mai roya karta
Jiski talaash waqt ko bhi naa ho

The Times Of Contemplation

The way I waited for you, was enough to break me again
The way I live now, you won't want to see me again
The memories faded away, but the feelings didn't
Tried running away, but my heart stayed broken

Drifting along the paths, life showed me the truth
Hustled the way through, still you won't be mine
That's what the truth was, you weren't meant to be mine

Shadows are what stay by me, light was nowhere to be found
Killed by my own each day, I forged myself from the ashes
Broken I still am, you won't be able to harm me now
I still am the same, but you won't recognize me now

Revelations or Revival

Falling into pieces with my own sorrows I am
Striving to reach the surface, drowning in my emotions
No where to be found the peace I once resided in
Running away from myself or am i just unacceptable to who I am

Tried to get rid of the darkness in me
Its hard to let go of the lone soul residing in me
Raging fires in my heart wants to burn the world down
Keeping myself strong, for each day nothing less than a war I face

I find myself a soldier these days
I have got nothing to lose yet I fight to save what remains
Time to rise from the ashes, create a new day
I fought, I survived, I cried, I raged
But as of now it is time to let go and change.

The Memories Of The Dark

The presence of this surreal curse still mortifies me everyday
The remains of the past reside in my present till this date
Locked away I am from the basic emotional necessity
Stuck in this prison of grief where happiness is just a dream

Trickles the dark blood from the heart onto the mortified soul
Diverges the thought of living into so many pieces left for the unknown
Afraid of the dark I reside in the shallows
Afraid of the rude harsh world I dwell into my own sorrows

Struggling every minute to not let the dark side take over
Praying not to stumble when the cold hits my soul over and over
Pretending to be brave to not let the world consume over
Trying to regain the belief I myself broke because you promised to stay here until everything gets over.

Left alone to burn into my own guilt
Casted away in a way that I never existed
Imagined if this was just a dream
The monster I am now reminds me it was all surreal
To seek the truth I now walk upon
To live again one day I let the world feed on my soul till I wake to a new dawn to frown on.

The Loneliness I Surrender To

Travelled along the past to let the present dwell in

Tipped to my horrors for I seek isolation

Nowhere to go just the breaths I take in

Afraid of myself I seek my faith in absolution

Raging in my heart is the war

For the loneliness I surrender to

How tyrannical is the fluctuation of the thoughts I had

Tried to calm myself for the sins I never made

Alive is the state of feelings my heart had

Trying to be what I saw myself in the future of my past

Disease is a blessing for the curse I have

For the loneliness I surrender to

Imagined the day I never was this sad

Lost in the world I tried to cope with the fears residing in my heart

Destined to die I would still breathe to be this bad

Horizontal the world seems where vertical I stay astray in the present

Lies there a lie which tore my life apart

For the loneliness I surrender to

FoUnD oR ProFounD

                       
Lost in time is our love.... Lost in love we are maybe with the wrong person....
It's not that I don't want to move ahead.... Maybe it's you whom I want to lead the way with..
Recognising the mistakes which kinda made us fall all over again....
Still trying to rewind those red and blue days in my mind over and over again...
You are happy with where you are now.... I am alive just to know you are in my memories somehow...
Was it all about being yourself coz maybe I'm not me but a reflection of you now....
Everyday I try to be the person I am but end up falling for you as you are a part of me which is taking over now.

Was I oR wAs I nOt

Let there be a time I was not in love with you....
Let the memories of you with me fly by till I no longer need you....
Switch to the other side of my life where I would be me not what you wanted me to..
Still in the fight to let you go but you are the piece of me I would never want to pierce through...
I wish I never loved you...but you are the missing piece which keeps me impatient till until I see you..

ReViSiT ThE ViSitEd mEmOriEs

Anjaani galiyo me akela bhatak raha mai
Shayad apne wajood ko yu khud hee mein talaash raha mai
Nikalti gayi galiya,  Mehfile adhuri si lagne lagi
Yu toh waqt bhot tha,  Par jaise ek lamha ek sadi jaisa lagne laga mujhe

Yaad nahi kab adhuraapan naa tha iss dil mein
Paas nahi hai jo tu mere dil ke
Kahani bhi yuhi khatm ho naa saki humari,  Jaha tum khush aur hum parwah naa karte
tumhari
Mehfilo ke beech kyu akelapan sa lage mujhe
Pyaar nahi ab tumse,  par phir bhi kyu ye dil nahi aana chahe kisi aur pe
Yo toh waqt toh bhot tha,  Par jaise ek lamha ek sadi jaisa lagne laga mjhe...

Gaya mai jaha bhi aanhatein teri hee kyu sunai de mujhe......
Mila mai jisse bhi usme tu hee kyu dikhai de mjhe......
Jo door sabse jaane laga mai.....naa jaane dil kyu naa jaane de tujhe....
Paas jo aaya mai...... Sab dhundhla sa dikhai dene lge mjhe....
Yu toh waqt bhot tha......... Pr jaise ek lamha ek sadi jaisa lagne laga mujhe

Tum thi jab baat nahi keeya karta tha mai khud se.....
Yaadon mein teri khoya rehta.... Khwaaishe le ke......
Ab sb naya sa hai tumhare bina... Yaa shayad wahi hai sb..... Badal chuki hai meri duniya shayad tumse door reh kar.........
Baat jo karna chahu bhi khud se mai...... Yaad nahi ab kaun hai ye....jo shayd dikhai deta hai mere jaisa aaine mein...
Yu toh waqt bhot tha....... Pr jaise ek lamha ek sadi jaisa lagne laga mujhe........

Am I wHo Am I

Naa jaane kis cheez ka gussa hai mere andar...........Jal chuka hu mai dil ki aagh mein................Par ye dil phir bhi naa maane jal kar.............. Nafrat si hone lagi apne wajood se mujhe........... Nahi yaad iss nafrat ki wajah ab mujhe............khud ko bhul chuka hu mai......Ab jo hu wo mera khuda hee bata sakta hai ab mujhe

TrYinG tO cOpe wiTh tHe tErm LiFE EveRyDay

Never knew what mysteries awaited me to unfold
Knew the history of our love that kept me going towards the unknown
Surrendered my own wishes, dreams, for you to be my most important aim
Dragged myself down the road, so you wouldn't have to stay astray
Regardless of what i have been told, I still would cry for you everyday
No matter what the circumstances be, I will find me walking down your paths, where you left me to pieces that still wouldn't want to be braid
I still will love you even if i would have to break my heart everyday and still smile regardless of what the world has to say.